Who is me , who is for me???

Ah.... Someone asked me What is my dream guy like?

I didnt have an answer..... been thinking since then.....
Since I am too filmi ( my maa thought english films would spoil us) but every bollywood masala movie that I have watched I have applied it somewhere or the other like a useful science theory and at most places it works unbelievably........

I wanna talk abt myself now.... self praise is bad I know but I am finding it irresitable this moment.... My dada's fav was always me amongst the three of us. He would nt listen to anybody but a tear in my eyes, he would change the world for me. I missssss you so much bhaiya. Whereever you are I know you miss me too and I am going to bethe first person to see you .... Thats what I have been prayinig since you left us.

Since I studied in an all gal's school, I am good with gals ... I can manage many together. But at times it was so very difficult to get my best frens to be best frens. I always wanted them to be best frens too. That was how me, sandhay, nidhi and tiku are best frens to each other. It was so much fun.
While in school , I was always teh ring leader :)..... , do all naughty thiings and get away with it quite comfortably.... That was easy . .... I lived a differnt life at home and a differnt life in school.

Few things that my parents instilled especially my mom remained with me for long. I thought Kissing was sinful. Most of my frens had bfs while in school. I wrote so many love letters for them.... I wonder if I can write it for myself:):):)...... Someday I had to....

I haven't grown a bit, I am just the same person.... childish, childlike... I dont know what it is.... I like to be responsible though .... and I am to an extent...... Yes I am!!!!
I am very passionate about my family, frens, oh... Did I mention I am a chatter-box.... I can talk on an on.... endlessly...

I have outgrown my shyness to a very good extent but somehow I feel inside I am still a shy person.... I would know who is the one for me the day I would not be able to look into his eyes when he ............ probably says something very romantic. I am die hard romantic....
eh..... I just get a feeling that I want to be truly in love with him.... I wonder what is he upto.... It's high time we meet... or have I have already met.... don't really know.....

He should not be smoking but I so like the idea of smoking..... I find it very romantic to hold hand in the cold and share the cigarette in a very special, magical way.

He should love me to the core, he should hold my hand when we walk the street, when we go shopping, or wherever .....He should be able to change the car gears without leaving my hands while driving :).

He should be intelligent and someone nice to talk to..... like gals, even some guys are really dumb and boring to talk to....

I still dont have a clear picture of who should be the one for me? Whoever it is , is surely going to be on a roller coaster all his life with me.... hence must be a daring guy... who can handle me... The moral of the story is handling me is a difficult task.... I get so many fun ideas... I wonder if I can be in a marriage and still do weird things .......

The day I find him, i do not know when..... how will i know he is the one for me..... some of my frens say... bell rings...it has not rung for me yet......

I at times wish, there was someonoe exclusively mine, I could hug him, kiss him ETC....

Thats all for now....

My Best buddies

It is a lil weird as me but all my buddies have been the best. None was less favourite than the other. Want to list them all not in any order of preference...
1. Joymati
2. Surendro
3. Sharda
4. Thumb Belina
5. Dhanapriya Gurumayum
6. Olivia (RIP)
7. Deepa
8. Neeli
9. sangeeta Hanjabam
10. Sameeta Angom.
11. Sangeeta Angom
Then I came for my higher studies, away from home, missing maa, baba, Big B, dada, Bi and Ting ( My large happy family).
Then came Sandhya Pathak to rescue me and became my best fren. She befreiended me thinking I am the most innocent gal of the batch. Most seniors felt the same, only to be shocked the following year. There was a huge paradigm shift.... From being this shy studious gal to being the most famous gal in the college. I was kinda tomboy and I was enjoying every bit of freedom that I got... Having had a vert restricted life...Oh my siblings...there were too caring ...they wont even let me play for fear of me getting hurt :).
where am I heading to.... I was talking abt my buddies.....family some other day...
12. Sandhya pathak
13. Nidhi Kashyap
14. Shruti Gupta ( Puchu)
15. Ritu Tikoo
16. Reena Dhar
17. Meghna Garg
18 Monika mam
19 Neeta tiwari mam
20 Poornima sareen.....
21. Preety Kumari
Lucknow
22 Bhavna
23. sonoka sanyal
23. Manju
25. Preety
26. Ashu
Bangalore
27. Kirti
28. Sarita badhan
29. Pragya Akhouri
30 Debali Bakshi.
31.Mangal kamat